Oh my god I ask myself that same question every minute of every day, if we only knew why then we would be able to help them. Unfortunatly thanks to all the great and supportive people here i came to realize that it is them that need to realize why, not us. It may never happen but I only hope and pray. My son keeps on going back always after 3 months of being clean. It is the absolute worst illnes I can ever imagine and I have to believe that God is watching out for them because my son would not be alive right now if there wasnt a reason for him to be here. Stay strong and go to meetings they are a lifesaver.