Thank you for those cyber hugs :ghug3 I guess after 20 yrs its hard letting go especially when its not what you wanted & he gives me no better choice. I miss his company, but thats it. I'll manage somehow I have great friends too that have been in similar situations plus my family, especially my mother & her prayers. And you're right... overwhelming it is, but I know I can do this. I have too. Thxs for continued support.