Well I hadn't had a chance to get online had been very busy. I read the responses & was amazed I even got responses... didn't think was gonna get even one. ha! First of all I want to thank everybody for all their support & value all their information. I'll respond a little later to some of the questions that you all asked me. I just have had a tough weekend so far. Saturday morning around 3 am, I called the cops on my hubby not only for beating me... he attacked my (middle) daughter too for defending me. Enough is enough w/ that man. Well also haven't slept in about 4 or 5 days & been up all night & now feel a little sleepy so gonna catch some zzz's before I lose 'em. Will look into those meetings.... really need them. Thanks again everyone don't know how the support helps especially right now. God Bless.