Today is one month anniv of me telling him to leave...
Just an update - I'm doing ok. Better than the 1st, 2nd or even 3rd weeks. I still have my sad moments but mostly I've surrounded myself with friends and am staying busy. At times I get this overwhelming feeling of missing him but in all honesty it doesn't last that long.
I hear that he's spiralling out of control. I am pretty sure he is back on his "other" drug of choice....crack. He's drinking and going into work. His behavior is off the charts. I must admit that when I first heard about all this a small part of me was glad. He's hurt me so why shouldn't he hurt too? But reality is - he is living a terribly sad life.
I hope that when the 2 month mark comes around - I'll feel even better about everything. I just have to keep telling myself that I did the right thing.
Many thanks to this board and all the people here. It has really helped me to be able to come here on a daily basis.