Hi Researchwoman.
First let me give you a big hug **********{Researchwoman}}}}}}.
It's hard. But you do need to think of you. That is what I am trying to do. I am not the wisest person on the subject but I have been where you are for almost 14 years and I am just finally believing I need to think of me. I can't fix it for him, he needs to do that.
I wish you luck in sorting out what you need to do for you. I hope you find support in these message boards as I have.
You take care.
Hugs
Debbie