Hey tainted--
(((hugs))) you've found a great place here to start getting YOURSELF well!
Sometimes those of us who love alcoholics/addicts have to face that we are addicted to the relationship.
A little "sobriety" from the relationship might do you some good too! It's OK to be on your own and free from a relationship for a while so you can gather your strength and find out who YOU are and what YOU want from this one precious life you have. Just a step back, it doesn't have to be forever. Just for today.
You didn't cause his addiction.
You can't control his addiction.
You can't cure his addiction.
So what do YOU want?? What dreams, plans, ideas, travels, personal growth have you put on the back burner because you've been caught up on this roller coaster ride of loving an addict? Put down the magnifying glass and look in the mirror.
The past is gone.
You are free in this moment!
Peace,
B.