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Old 07-13-2008, 05:21 PM
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Originally Posted by Done-With-It View Post
IF I fell back into my cutting and started stealing razor blades
from stores again, which is what I used to do, I would hope
my Mom or anyone would turn me in. I stole ipecac for my
eating disorder, for some dumb reason I didn't like to buy
blades or ipecac, the thrill of the death chase excited me.
But to be perfectly honest with you each time I was stealing
the blades, the ipecac, as thrilling as it was, a part of me was
begging for someone, anyone to catch me, because I didn't
know how to stop myself. I knew each time I was playing with
my life. But..... For me whatever it took, was my mission...

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My daughter has struggled with self injury and an eating disorder, too. It's as if she got a punch list of self destructive behaviors and is hell bent on hitting them all.
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