Sending you some prayers for peace. It is so easy for us to feel good about ourselves when things are going good and equally easy for us to be so hard on ourselves when they are not. I think it is the loss of control that we feel that makes us go bonkers. I have done it so many times in the past with my daughter. I can see her going down the wrong road, I feel so helpless and frustrated and that leads me to totally lose it with her. Yesterday my husband, my daughter and I went to see my mom and my family. It was such a good day and then in the middle of it I was struck with overwhelming fear of the what ifs. What if this does not last with my daughter. I had to get outside myself and just realize that none of us know what the future will bring. Just stay in today, Khrea. That is all you can do. Hugs, Marle