Tryin2Recover-
I completely agree with what you are saying about the Trust issue and my family. It was hard to come clean about getting clean since I had promised them I wouldn't go back to pain meds after my last bout with them. I'm not sure how they are feeling/thinking right now but I do know that I have lost their trust and that I must accept, as hard as it is.
In recovery I've been very open with everyone around me about what I'm dealing with and how I am dealing with it. I felt guilty not telling them that I had slipped for 2 years and broke that promise. That being said I wanted them to see that instead of getting arrested or in any sort of trouble, I was choosing to detox and begin recovery on my own, without even their pressure. I'm not sure they see it that way just yet but I pray that they will eventually....it's all I can do.