I'm new here---first SA site I have ever posted to. Four days sober, hands still tremoring. Another bottom. My LIFE has fairly completely wasted on chasing alcohol. I obsess about my failings 24/7 (literally since I haven't slept for over 4 days).............. hope to get to know y'all. Don't know what else to say. Everything seems hopelessly bleak---and has for 18 solid months. And many years before that.