To All who posted above,
Thank you for sharing your most personal thoughts. The Step Study is fantastic.
I locked into a small phrase that nets it all out for me in this step.... "powerless, but not helpless".
I know I can no longer do it alone....it doesn't work. I know that my HP will be the invisible guide, holding my hand as I move through this process, but He won't do it for me. He's no Codie!
I have to relinquish the victim inside in order to feel deserving of this guidance.
Victim in so many ways....Always taking the burnt toast so no one else has to have it.......
Compromising everything until there is so little authentic self to recognize.
No More.
Deserving of help, especially helping one's self is not being selfish, its providing basic maintenance needed for our own health.
I get that now.
: )
Rivka