So I dropped out of the play and the writer was very kind and understanding (I hid from my email for a day and a half)
Then, my AF's father passed away. I sent my condolences and offer of help and he sent me a response that kind of sounded like a form letter (it may have been if he's getting a lot of messages)....I'm going to stop by the receiving, but everything's so weird right now because i stopped spending time with him right before his dad got sick...
I suspect he wants the kind of relationship I can't give right now
I'm still feeling like I'm "in the hallway"...some days are good, but today I'm sleep deprived and panicky again.