I am there with you too! I have finally realized the same thing and I want out, I had 2 interviews last week and will find out this week about them...I am keeping my fingers crossed...I too have been smacked in the face with the realization that it has all been nothing but BS words, with nothing behind it...I am done with it, what kind of marriage is it anyway when someone is under the influence the majority of the time...but I think the worse to me has been the LYING right to my face, that to me is not what a husband does..good luck...I too feel that this is the right thing to be doing...it's time!!