The lady who founded MM is from the same area that I am. She actually ended up posting on the MM website years back that she was quitting moderation management in favor of the total abstinence of a 12 step program because MM wasn't working for her. A few months later she killed two people while driving on the wrong side of the freeway. She was driving across the state and couldn't even remember why she was headed there. I know that feeling. Once I start drinking, there is no stopping me and when I was drinking there was no reasoning with me. I was a black out drinker, but I would have told you I could probably moderate!