it didn't seem real for me either NL - I have to admit that some of those early days, it was only sitting here at the PC and helping others that got me through.
I was thinking just the other day just how desperate that little voice in my head got sometimes - it took every little bump in the road, and got great mileage out of it....knew it was going down I guess...and, ultimately, it did
Just - keep focused. You're doing great.
Do today what you did yesterday.....
Keep the task at bite size pieces
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