Hiya Least and ThisIsTheDay!
What's wrong with you is you are feeling like crap for whatever reason. Your usual way to combat these feelings is to surpress them with booze.
It sounds like you are having the internal debate right now - "Should I? Shouldn't I?"
Turn off the debate and occupy your self with something else. Go for a run, watch a movie, chug some ice water till you get a slurpy headache, call an old friend, bake a pie.
Your feelings will pass!!
Rooting for you