I am in the same exact situation spoke to husband today and told him I was having a hard time and he just easily told me I dont want to go home to your crying I perfer to give you your space. That hurt me more than anything. He is recovering and drank again the other day the first time in 7 months.. I know its a relapse but the worst part is I found traces of cocaine in his wallet but he is in such denial he swears he doesnt know how it got there and he never uses that. I am lost?