Over the past few months I have been able to detach from the alcholism... I really don't care anymore, but the alcholism affects their behavior and that's the part that is impossible to live with at times.. It's a life of insanity, but I do see the beauty in her and the possibilities if she ever beats her demons, she says I have faults too and of course I do, but alcholism is often a hellish thing to live with... I have found out that I'm compassionate and sympathetic to a fault... I'm afraid to let her go because I don't think she'll make it. We did marry for better or worse.