Lex- You've gotten some wonderful comments from the people here. I had tears in my eyes reading through this thread. I think no matter what has happened, you and your son can reconnect and build a better bond. Your son is getting older and hopefully can see the truth in what has happened- and in what his dad is. Just you being yourself and trying to re-establish a bond that has always been there is going to be enough for him. I know it's hard not to regret the past- believe me- I work on it every day- but you can move forward and take the opportunities you have to see your son. I am rooting for you both!