I'm afraid he will hurt you...please re-read your posts...what would you say to any of us or a friend or someone you care about??? You are confused...we understand but this is critical. You MUST take the advice given here.
He WILL NOT get better now. He wants you and your baby to die.....He is dangerous and sick....protect yourself and the baby. Even if your decision is not to keep the baby...thats your choice as well but what about the rest of your life?
He has beaten you down to the point where you don't even value your own life. He should be in jail or somewhere...Oh My god...my codie-ness is coming out. If I was near you I would come and get you out but I think you might not go!!!
There is help for you...Make a phone call...My dog doesnt even sleep on the damn floor! You said you can't think. Can you just think of something as simple as making a phone call...please...this could save your life!