kick myself for taking that first drink..
ive just finished day 4 sober. my story is pretty typical...ive been a drunk for several years, basically a non-functioning drunk for 18 months or so..
everyday i regret taking that first drink...many years ago. hell, i cant even remember it. i should have known what i was getting in to. my parents were alcholics...grandparents...all the way back to great-grandparents. my family tree is littered with alcoholics.
what made me think i was any different? what made me think i could 'handle it'? i guess i thought i was smarter...or more disciplined blah blah blah.
turns out i wasnt. i should have seen it coming from a mile a way.
i was a heavy smoker. i quit cold turkey years ago. this alcohol thing has it beat. im only on day 4 and i can already tell it is going to be a real bitch to conquer...