He's "getting better "
So my AH has been attending 2 or 3 NA meetings a week..He is reading his "big book" all the time it seems.. Underlining certain phrases or qoutes and having me read them.. It "seems" as though he is putting forth genuine effort. One thing that is bothering me is that he is trying to be way too affectionate with me. Always wanting to hug me, kiss me.. & Honestly I don't want that right now.. I want to believe that he is sober, but there is always that part of me that doesn't know. I am sure I will be unsure for a loooong time..I never saw him go through withdrawls of his DOC.. Tramadol. This med probably isn't considered to a lot of addicts as " good stuff", like other well known opiates. Regardless, he was/is addicted to it for a looong time. I read posts on substance abuse that, coming down from this stuff is or can be very hard. Some even compared it to coming off of heroine! & I never saw this?! Many more people than I ever thought have had serious issues with this.!
Some of you may have read some of my previous posts. I felt that I had really hit my bottom with him this time..I was reading a lot, learning a lot. I actually felt like this was it. Then, wham. His grandmother who practically raised him, who he is closer to than anyone on this earth, was diagnosed with lung cancer. The prognosis is poor. She is inoperabale, not a candidate for chemo.. Radiation will only buy us time.. So basically I am back to sqaure one!!! Any suggestions?? Thanks.. Love ya guys :-)