1. You are not lost. We are here with you. He may be lost, but you are not.
2. Get to a meeting. You will find many people whose stories are just like yours. they will love you and give you support.
3. By locking him out, you took care of you. That needs to be first and foremost right now. YOU.
4. Please keep posting as long and as often as you need. Again, since we are all here with and for you, you cannot be lost.
5. if no one has told you they love you today, I am. Right here and now.
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Be well, and have a great 24...