I'm so glad you found us. When our lives have become unmanageable we need help. The next time you talk to someone from AA get some phone numbers.
I went through the light bulb grocery thing and thank God for entry level jobs!!!
It's simple TigerLili. Follow the directions of people who have been where you are now until the alcoholic fog you are in lifts. There are many recovering alcoholics who want to help you so let them.
Rule #1. Keep coming back. :ghug3