TigerLili being scared of going to meetings early on is perfectly normal, it is a perfectly normal fear of the unknown..... sobriety!!! It took me a good while to realize that live did not stop for me once I stopped drinking, it actually began for me.
At the end of my drinking my whole life revolved around drinking, that was my life! So getting sober was scary, to me it was the end of life because I did not know how to live life on lifes terms sober!!!!
Follow Anna's advice, grab that phone book, sure it will be scary, but the person who answers that phone has been in your shoes, they are a recovering alcoholic as well.