Sometimes it's so hard to detach and focus my thoughts elsewhere.
Overlooking your true feelings about his behavior is not the same thing as acceptance and detachment which is why you may be having a problem today. It's denial. and there is a difference between detachment and denial.
It sounds like today, you are allowing yourself to feel your true feelings and having a normal reaction to a dysfunctional relationship. Tomorrow, you may be able to bury them again.
I can't just be happy with settling today, I want more....but I know by tomorrow that will pass and I'll be able to overlook again...
That's not healthy sweetie.