Panda......from the other side of the court here............
My husband is an alcoholic. He continues to drink, although not as much as he used to, and not to the point of passing out/blacking out.
He is making the greatest effort I've ever seen him make, and in his own way....he's making progress.
I have so much resentment and anger, built up over more than 10 years of worrying about if this would be the time he drank himself to death, and all of the other worries that go along with loving an alcoholic.
If my husband could say to me, just once, how terribly sorry he is about what he put me through and for so many years....and really, truly mean it....it would be so much easier for me to let go and forgive him for the past.
I eventually will forgive him for my own mental well-being, however, I know it would help me along to hear a "genuine, heart felt" apology from him. As it stands now, the only time he's apologized to me...he has had tremendous anger in his voice, and that just does not work for me.....
This is so sad...........
Hope you don't mind me coming on here and sharing..
Shivaya