Originally Posted by
warholian 
I got the same result - I would feel fine, and then light up a smoke and, suddenly, my heart was in my throat and I would feel like crying or screaming, or vomiting. I had to quit, because I got the feeling everytime I smoked, and it was causing alot of trouble just living day-to-day.
I still smoke but I feel that is doesn't really help me when i get all stressed out maybe just for the first drag or what not but I think I use ciggarettes as and excuse for hiding how I feel, I tell people that is helps me relax when I know inside it doesn't I make the thought " it helps me relax" the way I cope but it doesn't help me at all. I feel that its just to let people know that i will be okay even thought I know im lieing to them and myself. I hide quiet alot of how I feel its like faking a smile.
