I do .. or don't
Things have been going really well with me and my A. He has been sober for 18 days now (early days I know). But we have been really happy. However, I can't help but keep thinking that any day now he will start drinking and things will go downhill again..
It's an ever present fear that is scarying me to death.
He wants us to set a date for a wedding soon and I don't feel like I can with his problem. There are no guarantees with A's and I really don't know if I can marry him..His response is "well what are we doing then?.. we need to move forward in our life".
I don't agree with him because if I'm not ready to marry him I shouldn't. Similarly, if I don't want to be with an A, I shouldn't be with him at all....
I am confused because I love him and I want to marry him BUT for his alcoholism.....
Also reading all the posts here have made me realise that it is a problem that the whole family has to deal with for LIFE. Does anyone know of any happy and stable A families?
I am very confused.
Caitlyn