Been a while,
Looking for friends, I've blown it and am back into depression and panick attacks again. Starting to feel like I am beyond any hope and need some support and strength. My life here has ended socially, emotionally, and soon to be physically. The binge is winning about once a week now and I have to make drastic changes if life is ever going to get better and I am going to beat this alcoholism. I can't hold my head up in public, I can't make eye contact with anyone out of my shame, and humiliation. :codiepolice I am taunted and jeered at work. Hubby and I are emotionally done. I am saving up my money to move away to a place where I can get a new career and a new start. The old haunts just keep dragging me down and I can't see any other way out of this for me. Sorry to post bad tidings just need friends and support. Any friend at all.