Your way is not working, and you are dying. Let someone else handle things for a while...for me that was a medical detox and the capable care of the doctors there. I had help finding such a place that I could afford, but I did it the hard way rather than calling the people (AA) who can help you find a place that can help you.
I know more people with decades of sobriety whose first action to seek help was picking up the phonebook and calling AA.