I don't know what to do
I can't do this.....I can't. I keep f****** up and drinking and lying and scheming......I feel like I let everyone down....tay-lyn I'm sorry. I can't stop I just can't......I can't tell anyone I need help...I need help....I'm dying and I can't stop. I find myself thinking more and more about hurting myself.....I love my family....why can't I stop.....I have so much to be grateful for ....what the f*** is wrong with me