congratulations on four days!
some of that panic .. is 'normal'...
you've mentioned in other posts you're tlaking to your doctor, so here's a few things to try/shop/ blast through ...
( I know when I'm panicking - I go through things pretty dang fast)
camomile tea
(if drinking doesn't work - pour directly over head- LOL)
watching golf tv
truly. does that NEED any more said?
cleaning
nothing -
NOTHING will put me to sleep faster than planning to CLEAN something.
ok. a presidential speech - but RIGHT BEHIND THAT ... cleaning.
find anything by Charlie Rose. (PBS)
my God.
That man could make the Second Coming of Christ ... boring.
awful. just awful.
another thing.
sometimes, I have to literally sit and tell myself my list:
I haven't talked to anyone.
I can't have done anything.
I haven't gone anywhere.
So I can't have done anything.
This is not me.
It's the detox.
It's the drug.
I am not my thoughts.
I am the THINKER ... of my thoughts.
I am ok.
Prayer works well for me too.
WHen I was on that medication - I had full - bore panics -
and man - they SUCK.
Anything I can do to help - I'm here.