just reached day four
and in the middle of a terrible panic attack. I fell into old habits and got a bottle of wine to dull the sensation of being on a runaway train. Now I have to start all over. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Panic attacks have never been so bad. I'm sorry for letting everyone down. I'm sorry for backsliding and letting myself down. what is wrong with me?? I want to stop but am so afraid of this constant panic. I'm sorry.