I totally relate to hating the process. Ive been on this site since 2005, but consider myself a newbie.
Im finally taking the addiction seriously, more seriously than I thought was possible for me.
Ive set goals for myself and created a daily schedule. Im trying to avoid all instant gratificationa and sometimes I am just miserable and counting the hours before I go to sleep, but I work through it..
Everyday gets easier, but sometimes im really hating what I have to do to get better.
Thanks for the post