thanks nolonger, you're right of course, sometimes words come out of me a lot more intense or certain sounding than i mean. Guess i meant i try to stay earthbound as much as possible or my head gets away from me.
thanks nan07-At the last drug study i did they did bloodwork a few days later and it had almost cleared up by then, they still had to let me go though. I'm actually thinking of reading the rational recovery book tonight, its been a long time since i revisited it. Thankful to that one for explaining to me, in a way i could understand, about cravings from what i remember.
thanks yardbird, i haven't been able to do face to face meetings because of my work hours. I looked into AA meetings in my area and none start as late as when i get out of work. I have a lot of trouble waking up in the morning. I think i'm probably going to have to the online meeting route of some kind
thanks again, actually doing ok today considering everything.