Honestly, the meeting didn't really 'do' anything for me. Maybe it's because it was the last meeting of the day and in the city, but there was only maybe 10 people there. It frustrates me to hear that everyone wants to 'surrender' so that god can wave his hands and magically make them stop wanting to drink. I feel that alcoholism is MY problem to recover from, and I want to feel the pride and happiness of engineering my own recovery. I don't want to give someone or something else the credit for it.
I'm going to keep trying to go to different meetings and see if one of them strikes a chord with me. I wish there were more SoS meetings here; there's just one a week and right now I feel like I need more support than that.