Addiction is a disease.I don't think I ever "wanted" to use drugs.I tried them, and I found a means to escape my sadness and emptiness.I have spent times in my life trying to get it together without the help of a recovery program, and wound up failing.Now, I have been in recovery over six months, and I feel this time, I got it roght.I have learned new ways to cope with my bad feelings, and have found new friendships in sobriety.I cannot see turning back ever again.