Jen, you have had to hold together to get through the past couple of days, and you did well to maintain your serenity and dignity in the midst of all the chaos.
I think your mind and emotions are just catching up right now. Now that it's over and you are in a safe place with what all has happened, perhaps your mind still needs to process the pain and reality of his cruelty.
I think you might want to take a couple of days just for you and work through this from a gentle place. Post here and get out as much as you need to, maybe write one of those letters that we never send but where we can just let the pen say everything our heart feels and then maybe burn it and give it all to God.
Sometimes we get so used to the pain and the chaos that we don't notice the toll it is taking on our emotions, and then we end up in a sort of "post traumatic stress" situation when it is over and we realize what we just went through.
Sending special hugs and lots of prayers for you and your kids. You have a beautiful new beginning ahead of you and right now you just need to finish the clean up of the past.
Hugs
