I will pray for you also, Duet. I have read a few of your posts here and there, and you seem to know when to be a pillar of strength and when to take care and nurture yourself. You are surrounded by a loving extended family also, right? And I can tell that you have a lot of dear friends on this forum, so you must be a special gal. In the end, it will be all details that a year from now that you might not even remember. Find a mantra or song lyrics that you can repeat in your head if you have a panic moment tomorrow, one that takes your thoughts away from HIM and puts them back on you and your future.