((((Cupi))))
I'm sorry...addiction just stinks...I don't understand either, but I know lots of times the addict too doesn't understand. I remind myself that it is a cunning and baffling disease.
You are right to trust your gut...You will know when or if there will be another time for the two of you. YOur recovery sounds strong. No one ever said it would eliminate the sadness of watching someone we love start to self destruct, but it doesn't knock us over and take the wind out of us anymore. We find the tools to get past the hurt, disappointment and sadness much more quickly. Hugs and prayers for both of you