My husband has been out of rehab 3 months. He started on Lortabs and ended up using IV FENTANYL. He works with this stuff everyday. He will return to work after 1 year. We have 3 kids and they do not know. I too feel like I walk on thin ice and I never know how to respond to him. The wall between us is so strong. and I don't think it will ever come down b/c I just don't trust him after 17 years of marriage. This is all new to me and I feel so alone. I do try to be with friends and family, but I am so tired of crying to them. I just don't see that light at the end. I feel so alone. It is very hard to talk to him and there is no intimacy between us. He has no sexual desire. It also adds to the insecurity that I feel. I am so tired of being sick and tired.