Hi there sweetie,
I been there hon!!! Wondering, praying, hurting, crying, panic attacks...Let me tell you what helps me.
I wake up and pray...go to bed and pray....Hey I just pray a lot! I thank God for all he has done for my son and me!!! I put it in God's hands. Everytime I start to think about it...I ask God to help and do something to keep myself busy....We just have to put our Faith in Gods hands!
I prayed so hard for my son, he went to rehab and now he is home. 84 days clean and I pray everyday that God will take care of him and give him strength to get through this.
It's hard, but be strong!! Keep yourself busy! You are not helping matters by getting yourself sick like that! I know it's hard, but you can do it:ghug
I give all the credit to GOD for my sons recovery in progress!! Prayer, Faith, Love, and People who are on this site will help you get through it.
God Bless you sweetie and my prayers are with you!!
Machele