pain
Wondering? When will the pain stop? The sick stomack? The heart palpations? The sleepless nites? The worrying? The wondering? THE DRUG ADDICTION? I can't take much more. My thoughts are killing me. The wondering where she and the grandbabies are. I pray all day for God to give me peace. But this human mind can not seem to let go. I want someone to stop this madness, I know that it will not happen. I feel so hopeless and sick. Not sure how much more I can stand. I want to scream, cry and die. I am losing control and I can't seem to pull myself together for more than a few hours. I know no one can help, but just had to vent. My mind and body hurts so much. I want out. I want my daughter back and know that the kids are O.K. I want peace in my life again.
Sorry, I am so pitiful.