Jenn...I am right with you, but you hit it on the head... "addiction is addiction". One of the most difficult parts for me is how it made me feel like a snoop, untrusting, paranoid, nagging... but remember, you are trying to take care of yourself. It's ok. Sometimes it feels like it would be easier to just ignore it all... but it's really not. You need to keep working and keeping coming here for support.
Hugs to you