I'm with Carol on this topic.
At some point, I did have a choice and I chose to drink. But, at some point, I no longer had a choice. My husband once asked me if I couldn't or wouldn't stop drinking and the question made me pause. It was some of both.
I am not an AA person either, but I 'knew' in my soul that I was powerless over alcohol and I felt a huge amount of freedom, when I stopped drinking. My attempts to control my drinking over a period of a few years, had been dismal and exhausting and I was glad to step out of the cycle.