I just wanted to add that I am just so humbled at this point by the power of my addiction...teach, you spoke of serenity...I don't have an answer, except to just get up the next day and have at it as honestly as I can..
Through out the years I have drawn on the comfort and strength of the God of my understanding to show me the way( he directed me here).. and I trust that I will find some peace as I work the truth of MY life....and let my daughter work the truth of hers...