Oh sweetie....yes you are doing the right thing. It's so frickin hard, I do know. I didn't, wouldn't, couldn't get clean until I chose to. I didn't choose to until EVERY door shut in my face!!!! Hang tough Lies.....I'm with you in prayer and thought. Call anytime like I said last night if you need to or just want to...I mean that. BIG HUGS TO YOU!