((((Miss Pink)))))
The fear of "not knowing" used to be about the worst for me. Today when I have a slip and go back into worrying about what if, my recovery does eventually kick in ...sometimes quicker than others ... but it does kick in. I look at my feet and tell myself to get my head where my feet are. Or I call an Al Anon friend, or I move a muscle and change a mood, or I .... well, I think you know the drill.
Not making light of your situation at all. I just know I have to practice my recovery 24/7 no matter what I'm facing.
Praying for you. As you said, more will be revealed and it be revealed at just the right time. Remember, HP's got the plan.
Hugs,
Hangin' In