Im thinking he's dead
My *mind* (that thing that is usally insane) is telling me my ex-husband and former father to our son, is dead. In his home. of an overdose.
Went there today to serve him legal documents, no answer at door, tho he never answers when its me. Car in driveway. Leave doc's, call several times thru day, phone been off all day.
So...I think he's dead. This isnt the first time, especially on Sunday's, Thats usualy day after big using, hang over, pass-out, etc. He's been in/out of AA, but since he escalated into drugs, these days are more and more common.
Im not too nervous, not obesessing, just waiting for more to be revealed. Know there isnt a thing I can do. Heck, he lives 100 miles away, and even if I called his cousin who lives nearby, but hates me, he wouldnt do much simply cus its ME asking.
So....I will wait, I will pray and tomorrow I will see what occurs.
Another day in the life of loving an addict. Sad.